peaS

jsham

2006-08-28T16:11:00.000-07:00

I didn't go to school again. Haha.
Tomorrow's English prelim.
I have History mock exam too.
WTF!

Okay.
BYEBYE :))

sore eyes

2006-08-26T12:57:00.000-07:00

I have sore eyes.
Didn't go to school yesterday.
First, it was the left eye.
Now, both.
Wth.
I have sensitive eyes.
I have to recover fast.
Cos English prelim is on Tuesday.
Damn.

Going out later.
Meeting my sis.
Mom says wanna go Paragon.
Wanna buy jacket.
Vain ah she.
Haha.

Random.

friends don't stay long

2006-08-23T15:20:00.000-07:00

Good things have to come to an end.
I think...it has already ended.
Even before i knew it.

FUCK SINGAPORE IDOL!!

2006-08-17T23:18:00.000-07:00

I am feeling so lethargic these past few days. The stress is coming in. So many things to do..but so little time. O level is like in two-and-a-half months. The evening classes are driving me crazy. The moment it started, my brain is already dead. How am I supposed to study?? Ugh!

There are few things which I look forward to. Like..my birthday. Coz I'm 18 and legalized. Haha. O levels to end. And...PROM NITE!! Woohoo! I repeated for a reason. Haha. The reason why I'm looking forward to it is because my teacher..he's gonna hire some dj from either Zouk or MoS. And the theme, it's not hiphop.. It's Jam and Hop.. That means..I CAN WEAR A DRESS!! Oh, and also, I'm going to Dubai at the end of this year. That means, say hello to "year-end sale"!!

On a more serious note, I'm pissed.
WHAT THE HELL ARE SINGAPOREANS THINKING?!?!?!?!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT THAT MATHILDA IS OUT OF SINGAPORE IDOL?!?!?! SHE HAS THE POWERFUL VOICE TO MAKE HER STAY IN THAT COMPETITION. AT LEAST TILL SHE HAS REACHED TOP 3 OR SOMETHING. EVEN HADY AND JONATHAN WAS IN THE BOTTOM 3. LIKE, WHAT THE HELL?? I AM TRULY DISAPPOINTED WITH SINGAPOREANS. I MYSELF AM FEELING ASHAMED OF BEING A SINGAPOREAN. HOW TO BE A PROUD SINGAPOREAN YOU TELL ME?!?!?! THOSE YOUNG CONTESTANTS WHO WERE SAVED JUST NOW..IT'S NOT BECAUSE OF THEIR EXTREMELY SUPERB AMAZING VOICE..YOUR LOOKS CARRY IT THROUGH..IT ISN'T FAIR!! JOIN SOME STAR SEARCH CONTEST OR SOMETHING. YOU DON'T BELONG IN SG IDOL CAUSE YOU DON'T HAVE THE VOICE.

ARGH!!

HOPE NEXT WEEK WE SEE THE NOT SO GOOD SINGER OUT OF THE COMPETITION. AND PAUL, YOU IRRITATE ME.

alone again

2006-08-13T19:12:00.000-07:00

Once again, my parents are out of town.
Like forever.
So, i'm not abit surprised.
Hah.

Oh, got my malay results.
A B4 that is.
Wth...
I'm retaking it..
Wth...

Ahh..braindead.

fireworks

2006-08-10T22:18:00.000-07:00

So, went to watch the fireworks with the babes together with my cousins. Actually, I had the best National Day ever. Celebrations is school was great. The fireworks was nice but the ndp one was nicer. Saw it on tv. Supposed to go ndp with jack but i woke up late.

School starts tomorrow. MT O level results is tomorrow. Expecting a C grade. Ugh!

nuisance tagger

2006-08-06T20:43:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to that nuisance tagger. You know who you are. Be glad that i'm dedicating this post to you. Be honoured sucka!

Well, if you wanna curse and swear at me, I don't give a damn! I have my own life to lead. I can occupy myself with good stuff and not go to other people's blog and be a nuisance. If you say I'm a bitch..sorry, you got it wrong. I'm human. PURE human that is. And if you say I'm fat.. Let me fill you in. I lost 3kg and my weight is not under the overweight category. So, you're wrong again. Too bad.

That's it sucka. What else do you wanna call me?? I'll leave up to you.

totally sucky weekend

2006-07-30T12:17:00.000-07:00

My weekend has been sucky. Totally sucky. When it's all great, it's nice. When it's all bad, it totally sucks.

It all started on Friday. I was looking forward to meet my dearest babe, Anisah. My mom sms-ed me saying that we're meeting my sister's friend to pass him something. Okay, that, never mind. Then, my sister's friend called. He can't wait for us anymore as he has other plans. What the hell la!! I cancelled my plan and the other one was cancelled too. And my sister's friend said that he wants to come over. Hello...I've already made plans on Saturday!! And I knew, by that time, I couldn't go out on Saturday. My mom will be asking me to do this and that. By the way, she has already done that. Once i sat still, just about to read the newspaper, there she goes again..do this, do that. Eh, irritating you know.

CIBAI!!!

Ugh!~

where'd you go...

2006-07-25T21:22:00.000-07:00

I feel shitty.
My tummy's big. It won't flatten.
I'm stressed.
Despite the fact that I had diarrheoa.
Ugh.
I hate myself.
I'm not being emo or anything.
Btw, fuck emo..
But I'm so pissed with myself.
I will get my mood totally switched when something turns me off.
I will get angry at him even at the slightest thing.
But, I still act as though nothing has happen.
In fact, I show my stupid happy face.
Wth...

Oh, the other thing that I'm stressed about is my weight.
WHY THE FUCK IS IT NOT GOING DOWN MY DEAR BODY?!?!?!
I've exercise.
I've cut down on wat I eat.
I've chose a healthier choice for a healthier living..
Oh, whatever.
And IT'S STILL NOT GOING DOWN!!!!

What's the world coming to? It's coming to an end.

So long sucka!!!! Go stuff yourself with food so that you will be big like me. And I don't have to worry much.

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

racial harmony day 06

2006-07-22T15:15:00.000-07:00

Had Racial Harmony Day yesterday. Was kinda fun but Huda wasn't herself. Besides the headache, i think there's something else. I guess she was ok after she wore the sari. Haha.

Seriously, i don't understand some people. One time you're ok and the next time, you're not. When you have no friends left, you go and find people. When you have friends, you forgot about the people around you. Whatever.. It's your own life. Nobody can run it for you.

On a happier note, I have some pictures of yesterday. Irdaus and Iffri so cute. Haha.

Enjoy!!

darling jack didn't come to school

yes, they're identical twins..

dun quan and iffri. dun quan went all the way to Mustafa Centre to get that suit which cost him 65 bucks. Oh my....

Irdaus

People mistook me as teacher. Haha.

Class of 5N1 2006.

blastful weekend

2006-07-18T21:07:00.000-07:00

I had a beautiful weekend. It all started on Saturday when i went High Tea with my family (after 3 unsuccessful attempts). Of course i ate a pile. Haha, didn't really care tho'. After High Tea thought of going Baybeats but too lazy coz of the crowd and I gave it a miss. No Baybeats never mind, but WOMAD...A MUST GO!! It's comin next month. Yeah! So, walked around town with my sister. Accompanied her buy her stuff and all. Out of the blue she asked me, "you think you can go MoS not?". I was like.."huh..if they follow the year, can la..but if the birthdate...i dunno.." Hahaha. That's the most surprising thing. Then we met up with her boyfriend and he asked me kinda like the same thing. It would be nice if I were to go MoS with my very own sister. Not to worry though, there's always a next time. Oh ya, she went MoS but not me. Haha.

On Sunday, was supposed to go Band Fiesta at PS in the afternoon. But my mom and sis insisted that i shouldn't go and we went Paragon instead with Naz and Ila. Walked around, chill. I was kinda restless coz i was very tired. And at night, we went to Mustafa Centre coz my sister wanna get an iPod. I like going to Mustafa Centre despite it being crowded with their own race. I don't mind actually coz the things thre are freakin cheap. I wanna go on a shopping spree that place someday. After O levels?? Ka, please put it in the list. Haha. Walked around Mustafa Centre without the parents and practically asked my sister to buy for me this and that. So happy. Then we went to try on the wigs. Hahahahaha. Really funny. We were all bursting with laughter and couldn't stop laughing. Then the staff knocked on the panel on the other side saying we couldn't try. But we couldn't care less. We just kept on trying. How to buy if never try??? Hahahahaha! Funny funny..

Yesterday had Malay Listening Comprehension. Totally suck. Checked the answers. Got 6 out of 10. I'm deaf. My sister went back yesterday and didn't sent her off. Was too tired and i just kept sleeping. But she went into my room and said bye. Sweet...

I didn't exercise today and I ate alot. Btw, going for the night class tomorrow. Gotta make sacrifices and study. I can never study at home as I will get distracted. So, i'll be spending my time in school till 8.30pm tomorrow.

Ala May & Choy.. haha.

Till then, i'll just leave it at that :))

psychotic dance

2006-07-13T22:12:00.000-07:00

i feel so much better. coz i have a new template. YES! A NEW TEMPLATE!!
haha.

oh, i haven't do stuff which are supposed to be done.
like..save money, study and yada yada yada...

my sister's in town and i haven't got to see her. coz i was kinda frustrated that i fell asleep till this morning and not see her come back. well, i'm sorry. she's out btw.

the weekend is coming, and by the look of it, i expect a deadly weekend. so, at least there's something to be happy about. i think i'm gonna be out tomorrow. but i dunno where. on saturday, High Tea..after that BAYBEATS! woohoo! and on sunday, maybe to ps for the band fiesty thingy. WOOHOO!

and i would like to thank sarah my childhood friend for having my name up on her entry. eh..your presents..alot ah!!

wuahahaha!!

come back last minute... :(((

2006-07-12T21:58:00.000-07:00

EH...CB LA!! I SO FUCKING HATE IT WHEN IT HAPPENS. FANCY CALLING HOME LAST MINUTE AND WALAA..YOU'RE IN SG!!

NOE WHY I HATE IT..COZ MY MY MOM.. ALWAYS ASK ME TO DO THIS AND THAT. AND THAT AND THIS. AND SHE ASK ME TO KEMAS HERE AND KEMAS THERE. IT'S SO FUCKING IRRITATING OKAY!!

IT'S NOT AS IF SHE'S AN OUTSIDER.. SHE'S PART OF THIS FAMILY AND ...WATEVER!!! UGH!! UGH!! UGH!! I AM SO VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY PISSSSED!!!!!

GO...GO.. GO TREAT UR OTHER DAUGHTER SO VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY WELL.

I'M OUT OF HERE!

ladies and gentlemen, i think by now, u should noe who i'm talking abt. ergh~

ITALIA!!!

2006-07-10T05:05:00.000-07:00

ITALIA!!!!!!

HAIL THE AZZURIS!!!!! WOOHOO!!

JUBILANT VICTORY!!

20laps

2006-07-03T12:11:00.000-07:00

my weekend ... was alright la.

went to the syf opening ceremony on saturday. got those 3 bands competing for best display band of the year. tk took the title. the stadium was so packed. was so hot. but fun.

went town after that. coz i wanna get jeans. but ugh!!! can't find any due to some reasons. and i was so sick. sick as in ...i'm irritated la. walked around and i bought 2 shirts for myself. got home on time to watch england vs portugal. was so so sad that england lost. felt like crying. damn. my dad say england suck at penalty shoot out. even the commentator said it. they never ever pass penalty shoot out. ugh! am so so sad...

and brazil vs france. hah. brazil lost. like finally they are not in the semi-finals. come to think of it, their standard drop and they think they are so good that they can win it all. sorry ka.. hehe.

and on sunday. went swimming. hahahaha! swam 20 laps..

ok la..

bye.. coz im braindead.

ugh

2006-06-30T22:59:00.000-07:00

EH SERIOUSLY, I AM FEELING SO FUCKED UP!

AAAAAARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

farkin asshole

2006-06-30T22:15:00.000-07:00

CB LA...!!!!!
EVERYTHING IS SO SUCKY!!!
I FEEL SO DOWN AND RESTLESS.
I FEEL SO FUCKED UP!!!

UGH!!!

cb. hungry. bf sucks!

2006-06-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

i am irritated by my own self.
i am feeling very very depressed.

argh!!

hols out. skul's in. :(

2006-06-25T23:41:00.000-07:00

school starts tmr.

ugh!

bye!

bambooooooooooooo

2006-06-21T23:22:00.000-07:00

my selekeh day today. haha.

just came back from shisha-ing. it's been a loooooooooong time baybeh!
went with the usual suspects. was okay la.

it's his birthday. bought him a cake and gave him a slide presentation.
i've got no bucks. that's why.
it's the thoughts that count!
maybe next time la i get him something when i have big bucks.

i'm now addicted to the world cup theme song and shakira's world cup version of hips don't lie.
these kind of cultural traditional beats makes me perk up!!
hell yeah!!

bamboooooooooo

things running in my mind,

2006-06-20T23:49:00.000-07:00

so many things happening. it came one after another. even when one is not solved, the other kept coming in. am in a state of confusion right now.

i dunno wat's wrong wit people nowadays. living their life like they think they know everything but NOT! the attitude that's in them. can't stand it. sometimes, it's hard to put in words. and when i don't speak. they will think different. in the first place...are they EVEN human beings at all?? oh god, please change their mindset.

anyway, school's gonna re-open soon. *yawns* i haven't even touch my homework. or do i even have a homework?? i dunno... i just love slacking around at home and just doin nothing except for tv and computer if there's anything on. oh ya, been having sleepless nights due to world cup. watched every single match..woohoo!

it's his birthday in a couple of minutes time....

abortion

2006-06-16T18:46:00.000-07:00

i received this email and i wanna share it with you guys. it seem long but please, take some time off to read. it's quite sad actually.

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now, sitting on God's lap.
He loves me and cries with me; for my heart has been broken.
I so wanted to be your little girl.
I don't quite understand what has happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my existence.
I was in a dark, yet comfortable place.
I saw I had fingers and toes.
I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not near ready to leave my surroundings.
I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping.
Even from my earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.
Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry.
I heard Daddy yelling back.
I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon.
I wondered why you cried so much.
One day you cried almost all of the day.
I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.
That same day, the most horrible thing happened.
A very mean monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in.
I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.
The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me please; Mommy, help me."
Complete terror is all I felt.
I screamed and screamed until I thought I couldn't anymore.
Then the monster started ripping my arms off.
It hurt so bad; the pain I can never explain.
It didn't stop.
Oh, how I begged it to stop.
I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off.
Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying.
I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.
I wanted to make all your tears go away.
I had so many plans to make you happy.
Now I couldn't; all my dreams were shattered.
Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.
I wanted more than anything to be your daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful death.
I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you.
I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand.
And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead.
I felt myself rising.
I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place.
I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.
The angel took me to God and set me on His lap.
He said He loved me, and He was my Father.
Then I was happy.
I asked Him what the thing was that killed me.
He answered, "Abortion; I am sorry, my child; for I know how it feels."
I don't know what abortion is; I guess that's the name of the monster.
I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl.
I tried very hard to live.
I wanted to live.
I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.
It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me.
It was impossible to live.
I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you.
I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster.
Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did.
Please be careful.

Love,
Your Baby Girl

dunno la.

2006-06-13T18:48:00.000-07:00

i'm bored and the only solution is to go out.
somehow, naggies at home don't agree.
i'm kinda pissed.
i mean, i'm always alone at home.
so i find myself either going to my cousin's house or go out.
wat else can i do?? study??
that's wat my dad say la..but it's stupid shit.
he say something like "this is your o lovel year and if you don't make it..don't come to me and ask me for something. i'm not gonna give you anything.."
and watever shit la...
it's as if i stay at home and study.
i'd rather drown myself with books.
and just read till i die.

and i'm supposed to go esplanade tonite to watch my cousin act. she went for this triqnaqi thingy. and she has a performance tonite. i wanted to go but the naggies won't let. watever~ and it's not as if i bubble or something. please try to understand my situation. i myself don't know how to bring it up. my dad would be saying something like.."don't go la..rest at home..." again, watever~

so long sucka!!!!

humph~

roll down

2006-06-05T22:46:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentlemen, please buckle up as you're in for a looooong entry. i think.

saturday 3rd june:
went sentosa for the balloon hat thingy. but before that, went town first coz of some reasons. there was a whole lotta people. it was total fun-ness!! and it's the third time the 5 of us went out together. so so so FUN! haha! oh ya, naz, ila and boy tagged along too.

azrika and naz didn't bathed in the sea. but, they weren't dry in the end. coz we carried them to the sea with their oh-so-super nice clothes and *splash*!! they were wet..thanks to us! nanny nanny poo poo!!!

and altogether..we were wet! woohoo!

sunday 4th june:
woke up to a bad start. felt breathless and had weezing sound. felt so bad. had difficulty breathing. and was struggling to cough. terrible. but i straight away drank hot water. it subside a little. only this morning, i'm okay aldy.

and so, had dinner at adam road. finally, nasi lemak. and also, ICE KACANG!!
yum yum~

and today..went huda house. they were supposed to come my houe but mom didn't went to work. so...ya..

i dun it's long.....don't cha think so.......???

oh!! and HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO THE TWINS IRDAUS AND IFFRI!!!

bored

2006-05-30T20:29:00.000-07:00

oh so boring right now. practically nothing to do.

jack goin mos. she's gonna have a freakin good time. she's the girl that i noe who has total freedom. how cool is that.

bla bla bla...
i dunno.

b-o-r-i-n-g.

made it myself.

2006-05-28T18:48:00.000-07:00

a new simple skin done. made it myself. gosh..i'd never felt satisfied!!!

and tomorrow it is. the malay o level paper. did a whole lot of peribahasa, the imbuhan thingy and a whole lot more. hope i could get a good freakin grade! and not concentrate on it anymore.

yesterday was naz's advance birthday celebration. had steamboat. yum yum!

oh, my sis coming back on the 31st may. nice to see her again. apparently, she has many leave days. so fun.

No Doubt and The Cranberries

2006-05-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

I'm supa duper bored! The laptop doesn't interest me anymore. There's nothing to see. Be it on friendster or myspace. How boring...

I'm just viewing blogs. Blog after blog after blog. Even photoblogs.
Listening to old songs too. No Doubt and The Cranberries. Gosh! It's been ages since I hear their songs. Lovely!

argh~
bye!

BIG WALK!!!

2006-05-22T04:54:00.000-07:00

went to big walk yesterday. first time took part in this kinda event. it was really great eventho' 4 who were supposed to come did not turn up. in the end it was only the 6 of us. couldn't say anything.

anyways, had fun obviously! we didn't really start from the starting line. we just went to join the crowd at city hall. hehe. so, i think we walked around 5km or less when it was supposed to be a 10km walk. heh! after walking, we went to sit down and wait for the lucky draw. we didn't won obviously.. better luck nest year i guess!!

while waiting for the lucky draw results........

the only cousins who attended big walk......

AND PRESENTING TO YOU.............

left to right: makcik minah sayang. makcik rock/spiderman cool. makcik india yang suami dier tgh tunggu kat tepi tu. yg pakai baju green! hahahaha!!

post exam

2006-05-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

and so, Elliott Yamin is out of American Idol. how sad. coz he is this one emotional guy. that leaves with Kat and Taylor. i so love Taylor. he has this great showmanship and i like the way he dances and bring the crowd so alive. i hope he wins it.

exams over. results out. not too bad la. average only. didn't really study.

k watever.

bye.

fuckin pissed wth everything!!

2006-05-13T08:47:00.000-07:00

ARGH!! I'M SO FUCKIN PISSED WITH EVERYTHING.
EVEN MYSELF!!
I HATE IT. I HATE IT. I HATE IT.

I'M NOT BEING PARANOID TOWARDS YOU OR WAT.
BUT ARGH!!
DAMN LA.
ONE AFTER ONE CAME.
GOOD LA.
U WENT TO TELL UR FRENS.
TELL EVERYBODY LA..

ARRRGGHHHHH!!!! BACK OFF!!!!!

babi+cb+perangai=syahila childish

october baby..

2006-05-09T04:58:00.000-07:00

got this from shireen's blog..err, it applies to me also rite?? hee.

'Which baby are you?'. October baby, I am! There you go..
OCTOBER BABY
Loves to chat (depends)
Loves those who love them (YES!!)
Loves to takes things at the center (okay la..)
Inner and physical beauty (you think??)
Lies but doesn't pretend (50-50)
Gets angry often (not really...)
Treats friends importantly (DEFINITELY!!!)
Brave and fearless (depends)
Always making friends (okay la...)
Easily hurt but recovers easily (sometimes)
Daydreamer (hah. always!)
Opinionated (true)
Does not care to control emotions (ya..sometimes)
Unpredictable (hmm..)
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. (i swear i didn't add this but it was written)

haha!!

pissed with EVERYTHING!!!

2006-05-07T05:36:00.000-07:00

i'm very angry and sad at the same time.
emotions kept running thru.
all at once.
be it family or friends.

talked to him last nite.
talked about almost everything.
there's so much to ask and there's so much to answer.
i like it.
but.
my instincts??
they were totally right! totally true!
hah!
am i someone who can sense everything or wat??
hah!
dun wanna talk abt this anymore.
it makes no sense.
futhermore, i have him.
but.
i will not forget.
i repeat.
i WILL NOT forget.
eventho i have a memory of a goldfish.

next, is my parents.
they dun understand me.
it's hard for me to change.
and please stop saying the word "attitude".
it boils me.
coz i hate it.
so, shut up!

okay...friends now.
azrika got probs wit....
it's okay girl.
everything's gonna be alright.
i know it is always hard on you.
but please, be strong!!
be a GOLD DIGGER!
okay??

hooda...good to see you smile.
but everytime u smile wat..
hahaha!!
let's be crazy together and we will rock singapore off its shore!!
yeah baybeh!!

woohoo!!

before i go, i wanna share something.

lawa kan...?? hehehe.

maldives

2006-04-29T15:00:00.000-07:00

okay. parents are off to Maldives.

i'm feeling sad and dissapointed.
but it's ok.
i understand.

braindead now.

bye.

SILVER@!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-23T08:05:00.000-07:00

wooohooo!! so so happy for the band..attained a silver award. it was unbelievable cos this year's syf standard is really high and when the first 3 schools performed, all were worried. they were scared they couldn't even get what we want. but we showed the crowd wat we did and of course our best. i saw the band marching in from infront. they were so smart and sleek. nice nice. even after the performance was over, i was still very worried. coz it's our first time participating in an outdoor competition and we are the smallest band.

and so, after the result was announced, i could see sad faces. coz the aimed for a gold. and come to think of it, attaining a silver award for a first timer in an outdoor competition is already good enough. pitied the sec ones tho. they thought it was their fault we didnt get a gold. i mean, a silver is definitely good enough for a first timer. all the hard work were paid off.

participating in an outdoor competition is really an experience.
i would never forget it.
never....

big day

2006-04-21T11:00:00.000-07:00

ok.. it's the big day today! gosh! so scared.
dunno wat's e outcome later in the evening.
haaaa...

wish us all the best man...

I WANT YOU DEAD!!!

2006-04-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

DAMMIT! FOR GOODNESS SAKE!! I AM SO ANGRY. I REPEAT!! SO SO SO FUCKIN ANGRY. I MEAN, WHAT ARE EYES FOR? CAN'T YOU LIKE SEE FOR YOURSELF? FANCY HAVING A PAIR OF BIG EYES BUT CAN'T SEE. GREAT! WHEN ARE YOU GONNA STOP STEPPING ON MY FOOTSTEPS?! I THOUGHT YOU'RE COOLER THAN ME? I THOUGHT YOU HANG OUT WITH THE COOLEST FRIENDS OF ALL? THEN HOW COME YOU KEEP FOLLOWING ME?! ONE TIME..TWO TIMES OK. BUT I DO RAGE SOMETIMES. BUT THIS, COUNTLESS TIMES!

ARGH!!!

BACK OFF!!!!!!!

ka birthday

2006-04-16T04:39:00.000-07:00

first and foremost....

AZRIKA!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

went out yesterday..but without hooda. sad sad. treated the birthday girl seoul garden. make it special for her since it's her first time there. haha. so, that was her birthday present. we ate for almost 2 hours. gorge ourselves and had so much fun. and so, it was revealed. a long awaited truth. woohoo! finally man...

anyway ka, hope u like boy's idea of giving u the sand from sentosa. hahahaha!!

aiya..BRAINDEAD aldy...

sssssssss

2006-04-14T11:39:00.000-07:00

it's 2.38am. and im aint sleeping yet. my last saturday band practice tmr. and i have to go on my own.

it's so bored. was online an hour ago and chatted wit jaci and dun dun. hah. gossip-ed wit dun dun. haha.. didnt noe he is one gossip-monger too.

and i'm on the phone wit him. my neck hurts...

so long....................

busy busy busy

2006-04-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

didn't update for so long.
was busy with stuff like:
- speech day rehearsal
- band practises
- after skul classes
so many things. no time to study. mid-year exams is like in 20 days time.
not prepared.

2 more practises to syf. how cool. den, i can forget abt endurance and those crap they've been talking abt.

at the same time, got alot of things happening. i mean, not within skul context. very very happy. coz after all the hardwork and stress-ness...PARTAY!!!!

wooohooo!

okay. enough bout tt. one of my babes..sort off like not happy wit me. i tink. i dunno wat's on her mind la. she treat me as tho im invincible. not only me. my other babes as well. dunno la her. mood swing until so bad. pms also not lyk tt sey. seriously ah..i really want to noe why she's like that. my god. you're old enough to know wat's the meaning of childish, immature...

ok, my eyes now...
half-opened...

so...u think???

pirate

2006-03-26T20:56:00.000-08:00

i'm one eye jack...err..no one eye syahila.
i didn't come to school today. went to the eye clinic. had the surgery. lyk FINALLY!! and, it was freakin painful!! cried when the doctor injected my eye to make me feel numb. wtf!

oh ya. met my sis yesterday. she had a flight here. it was a last minute thingy as she was on standby. my sis bought for my mom an LV wallet for her birthday. hah! now she has matching bag and wallet.

ok. i can't really see now wit one eye. so..BYE!

zouk, sis's goodbye and skul starts..

2006-03-19T07:00:00.000-08:00

ok. where shall i start??

firstly, had a freakin good time with my babes. enjoyed myself to the fullest of my ability. haha! can't wait to be really turning 18.

secondly, my sis went back to Dubai yesterday. come to think of it, she really bought alot of stuff for me and i really appreciate it. anyway, she's a rich girl now. so gonna miss her.... the next time she'll be back...hari raya...

and lastly, skul is starting tmr. i haven't done a single thing yet. moreover, i hate the new timetable. it sucks. my free periods are scattered.

so long suckas!

you could be my unintended

2006-03-14T09:44:00.000-08:00

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one
I'll always loveI'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
He could never be as good as you

huda's messy

2006-03-13T23:15:00.000-08:00

went to celebrate hooda's birthday at taka garden. and luckily, everything went as planned. coz hooda was like wanting to go home early.... haiyo..her mom la... we celebrated her birtday and ahah...she was messed up eventually. syamil bought for her ice cream cake and we sabo-ed her wit that and whipped cream!! haha!! padan muke!! mara-mara lagi ah!!

she couldn't really wash up...and so, she went home like THAT!
haha!

ARRGGHH!! I HATE MYSELF!!!

2006-03-08T05:03:00.000-08:00

the after effects....couldn't do things right and..
CRY...

:(

unforgiveable sinner

2006-03-07T04:53:00.000-08:00

all of a sudden
i felt a regret in me
i felt a sense of jealousy in me
i felt anger in my own self
altogether, i'm upset.
freakin upset.
it is, finally, the pain inside reveals on the outside as well.
i may be happy
i may be cheerful
i may be jovial
i may be laughing at stupid jokes
but still,
i have feelings that really cut deep thru.
yes. it was dead deep.

you were right.
i SHOULD have listened to you
i SHOULD give you a very last chance out of all the very last chances i gave.
i SHOULD have been gratetful with what i had.
i SHOULD see things in a nice way.
i SHOULD be more patient with certain things.
now, i guess, it's too late afterall.

i know i hurt you...
you hurt me back too...

stoopid nadiah

2006-02-19T06:06:00.000-08:00

ok..so, didn't really enjoy my day today. went town wit nadiah and hakim. naz and ila as well. such a bored one. i thought the whole cousins are gonna be there. but, it was only us. so, it was a bored one.

wtf!

okay. BRAINDEAD!

v day

2006-02-14T03:36:00.000-08:00

LOVE + CHOCOLATE = FAT + CANNOT BERAK + BONCET

Happy Valentine's Day!

muaks!

FINALLY!

2006-02-06T04:52:00.000-08:00

FINALLY! decided on a skin after a month of BLANK.

well, the past one month went by pretty fast. alot of things happen in that one month itself. first, i finally got to meet my Anisah dearie. and of course other stuff. skul's been great. e peeps actually. ya.. madness! wooohooo! i like!

other than that, nothing else happened. now, i can't wait for december to come.

went to NP open house on saturday. i HAVE to go to that skul. i can be thinner.. haha!

some of the pics we took are like imitating people. coz we think that they're "COOL".
wtf. get your OWN life.
hah!

woohooo! skul

2006-01-03T23:36:00.000-08:00

first day of skul was fun.
coz we bitched around lyk nobody business.
lyk we always used too...
haha
we will never ever change man..

so...looking forward to skul..

haha!

back frm bangkok

2006-01-02T11:20:00.000-08:00

hey.
i just got back from bangkok.
at the airport now.
the trip was alright afterall.
of course did some shooping!
met my sis there.

i think...i wanna go there again.

oh ya...kak iana, anyway, u mentioned abt jj market rite?
wat we did found was chatuchak..
abd wat u described to me is exactly e same as chatuchak.
they sell pets for as low as 4 frggin bucks!
cute pulak tu..
hee..

reflections

2005-12-30T13:00:00.000-08:00

i have so many to talk abt. but where should i start....??

okay...let's start wit something.

Number 1:
I DON'T WANNA GO BANGKOK TIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!
why, out of all the days, i have to go bangkok tis weekend?
gosh!
i'm so NOT looking forward to it!
blergh!~

Number 2:
i can't post my reflections on 2006.
coz why?
coz i'm off to bangkok.
shite!~

Number 3:
i can't go countdown.
coz why?
i'm off to bangkok.
you've guessed it right!~

Number 4:
i can't call syazwan to wish him happy birthday and happy new year when the clock stirkes at midnite.
coz why?
ya...bangkok...

see..it all goes back to the same reason!!!!!!

i'm not asleep..

2005-12-27T10:04:00.000-08:00

it's 10 am now.
it's not that i woke up early.
i have not sleep.
at all.
can't sleep.
coz i'm hungry.

ate aldy.
still not sleepy.
i think i will need sleeping pills.
i'm getting insomia.
gosh!
my eyes are lyk so wide WIDE open.

anyway, i did some thinking when i was not asleep.
some thorough thinking.
and then, it hit me.
i made my decision.
i'm prepared wat ppl are gonna say.
it's my life.

so long suckas!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2005-12-26T01:01:00.000-08:00

just got back from my friend's hse.
e one staying in dubai now.
ya. she's back for her winter hols.
and she's leaving on e 14th next month.
and will not be comin back.
until 3 years later.
i HAVE to go out with her.

so, yesterday, town was jam packed.
didn't really walked around.
instead, we went to chill at Mc Cafe.
talked and played.
it's e cousins' games.
eventho' it was only e 5 of us.
we still rocked!
yehaaa!
but den later, 3 of my frens came to join us.
and we played the game together.
it was still fun.
as always. coz it's us.
haha!

i have to really enjoy myself now.
coz when skul reopens, i dun think i can have as much fun as i did tis time.
coz i dun think my parents will let me out.
when i hope they will la. once in a while.
i HOPE....

oh ya.
i wanna post here my reflections on 2005.
i've aldy started on it and guys, look out for it.
it's just something to read abt.

till then.
take care.
and have a MERRY CHRISTMAS.
altho' im a day late.

i'm lost. . . .

2005-12-22T11:37:00.000-08:00

i'm so lost right now.
totally feeling lost.
confusion starts pouring in as well.
as a result, upset.

i don't know when i'll stop feeling this way.
for no rhyme or reason, i still can't do it.
i may not have the guts.
but i can't let it happen this way.
i simply can't.

naz, you should know what i mean....

YEHAA!!

2005-12-19T22:18:00.000-08:00

YEHAAA!!!!!

yes. i'm so so so elated! i passed my n! i mean it was way way much better than last year. like last year, i got 11 points. and this year, 6 points. gawd! didn't really expect this. it was so nervewrecking for me. i did cried. i mean, i seldom cried. but wat e heck. it was tears of joy. i was really really happy. and now, i really REALLY wanna concentrate next year.

ok..i'm so happy until i dunno wat to blog about..

k la.. bye!!!

bla bla bla

2005-12-17T14:29:00.000-08:00

i'm so sick right now. since yesterday.
dunno why.

so, on thursday, all of us went to Lau Pa Sat.
with the aunties, uncles and cousins.
and of course my 2 grandmas.
the reason being.
MY SIS GOT A FLIGHT BACK TO SINGAPORE!!
haha. it's a surprise guys. haha
i went to meet my mom and aunt first.
den we met my sister at her hotel.
her bf was there too and he said that he also dunno my sis's comin back.
haha.
SURPRISE.

den when we were at Lau Pa Sat, my cousin ila, was like.."eh kak inn!!" and she ran towards her and hugged her. den my grandma..."eh..tu inn ehk??" of course she didn't believe it. when my aunt frm my dad side came, they were shocked too. esp my grandma. as always. and so, we had dinner.

anyway, my sis comin back today again. as usual, for only 24 hours. her flight is actually dubai-sin, sin-melbourne, melbourne-sin and lastly, sin-dubai. so, we meeting her later. and at e same time, we're sending my cousin off to Vienna.

k guys... i wanna eat. bye!

oh ya...results is like in 2 days time!!!! gosh!!!

fucking probs!

2005-12-15T12:14:00.000-08:00

woke up early today.
i also dunno why.

so, went out yesterday.
accompanied naz to VCH to collect her cert together with ila.
den went to town to meet nad.
we walked and walked.
later in the evening, met up with yan, wardah and liyana.
chilled. disscuss some stuff.

going out later in the evening.
can't say where tho'.
just wait and see la k. . .

weekend blast!

2005-12-13T01:34:00.000-08:00

my weekend was a total blast! had lots of great fun! woohoo! coz we spend it with cousins. haha!

on saturday, we went towning. walk around then chilled. celbrated hakim's birthday. haha! i like his face. full of banana chocolate! at that time, we were at taka. so, when we sabo-ed him, of course he has to wash up. so he have to go to taka toilet. haha! he was so malu man! everyone was looking at him! very fun ar..
while i was there, i saw lots of my friends. that includes Lyn. my secondary school friend. miss her so damn much. and many many more la..

and the real fun begins on sunday........

we went to PULAU UBIN!!! yeah! had so much fun. 18 of us altogether. we cycled. we chilled. we played. we everything! it was one hell of a good time baybeh! i loike! i wanna go there again!!!

nak gi ubin lagik!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

'raining cats and dogs'

2005-12-08T02:32:00.000-08:00

it's pouring outside.
the lightning, is fearing me.
and i'm pouring too.
on the inside.
as well as on the outside.
omg!
i just don't know what to say.
i'm speechless actually.
something happened just now.
and i was in a state of shock.
i don't wanna talk about it anymore.
let's just forgive and forget.
i hope. . . . .

dearest ain : first and foremost, thanks for making the call coz i didn't expect it. really. thanks for saying all those stuff to me. i really appreciate it alot. and i mean, ALOT! you are nice and caring. i'm blessed to have someone like you to console me and all. thanks alot girl.

last and absolutely not the least. . .

dearest sha : i'm sorry if i have offended you in any way. i wasn't trying to bad mouth you. i wasn't trying to do anything. but you see, i have feelings, just like you, and of course, everyone esle. yes, you've guessed it right. i am jealous. i mean, just try to put yourself in my shoes, i think you would feel jealous. which girl in the world does not feel even a bit jealous? so, i hope you will forgive me as i've already forgiven you. i'm so sorry girl.

Love,
syahila

I WANNA BE SINGLE!!!!

2005-12-06T22:12:00.000-08:00

i am infuriated.
i somehow rather feel that the other half of me is gone.
gone for good.
i think the "other half of me" is better off with his friends.
especially sha.
sha is this girl who had a crush on my "other half of me".
till now, i can sense that she still likes him.
even if im not with my "other half", i can feel it so strongly.
they look so happy together.
he made a promise.
but then again, it was empty promises.
i'm not surprised.
i'm always not surprised.
maybe he should end it with me and start it with sha.
they might be happy.
i can tell.
see their faces together happily.
what crap is it that you ran away because of me?
all that is RUBBISH!
coz you're still enjoying with that wonderful friends of yours.
still, i'm not even a bit surprised.

i feel like i wanna distance myself from that wonderful friends of yours.
i don't belong to them.
call me anti-social.
call me whatever.
just think whatever you want.
i can't be bothered!
i don't suit with u guys anyway.

ass!

finally, my twin is reincarnated!
i really need her so badly.
please come to me darlin!
i have loads to tell you.
so many that i have to jot it down.

now, i wish i could be like my sister.
being away from everyone.
keep discovering the world.
meet new people from all over the world.
i think i'll have no worries!
certainly no worries!

maybe i'm goin out tomorrow.
with the cousins on my mom's side.
it's beem a long time since we hang out.
can't wait.

boohoo

2005-12-05T08:47:00.000-08:00

finally!
my air-con works now.
hell yeah, i'm so excited!

on the other hand.
i'm so fed up!
i hate some people who tags and leave their name as anonymous.
i mean, if u say good stuff, it's fine with me.
but this fucking "anonymous" says things that got me really offended!
FUCK YOU!
i'm so mad.
fancy asking me wat's my weight..and i'm fat!
so wat if i'm fat?!
so wat if i am?!
i may look fat to u.
i'm so SO angry with u "anonymous"!!!!!!!!!
SO ANGRY!!!
such a nuisance!

reply to other GOOD AND BEHAVED TAGGERS...
hi ! thanks for tagging... and wat's ur blog address??
hey !! can u tell me who u are? so i noe.. i have many cousins...and u're one of em!

uncle yatiman

2005-12-03T09:59:00.000-08:00

so, we went to uncle yatiman's function just now, in the afternoon. he holds this kinda open house every year as he is sort of like a vip. he's the minister for information, communications and the arts. ya, something like that. so, as usual, uncle yatiman was like telling my mom.."how come your daughter now so big? no more baju modern?" den i was like...ya..watever.. everyone says that. i'm used to it. i know i'm gaining weight but you guys keep telling me the same old thing!

after the function, we're supposed to go to the airport to receive my cousin and her husband from Vienna but it was too late. so, we decided just to meet them at my grandma's place. before we went there, syeila and myself didn't know where we're going next. and all of a sudden, we're at town! in baju kurung! on a saturday! can you like imagin?! oh my gawd!! den syeila and i was like oh no!!!! we tell them what are we here for? and they say that we're here for coffee. so, before that, we went to Paragon. and lucky we ONLY went to Paragon! lucky... i wouldn't wanna go somewhere esle. if not, i will surely bump into some of my friends. my goodness! it's saturday man! so we told them to just stick at Paragon. haha! we went coffee bean and just chat about everything.

then, we went to my grandma's place to meet up with my cousin and her husband. it was nice seeing them coming here in singapore.

anyway, here are a few pics. . . .

this is uncle yatiman's place. anyway, he is the one in the batik baju. beside him on the right is his wife. beside his wife is his PA.

the moms. actually, both of them were uncle yatiman's student when they were in secondary school.

and this is syeila! and myself! btw, we were in town like that!!!

FUCKIN ATTITUDE!

2005-12-01T00:40:00.000-08:00

so, did went out yesterday. it was alright la. although there were some pathetic moments.

my friend, Syeila, touched down this morning from Dubai. goin to her house later in the evening. see la. if i'm not lazy. my cousin's coming back from Vienna this sat. hee. more people are comin back to Singapore. cool.

okay. . i'm bored to death now.

oh ya. it WORLD AIDS DAY today. so peeps, play safe, protect yourself!

haha

back home :(

2005-11-29T05:23:00.000-08:00

nothing much happen to me nowadays. my life's been such a bore actually.

anyway, i wanna got out tomorrow. yipee!!

and...i wanna go pulau ubin too. never been there before i guess. when uh naz???

i got nothing to do at home. except to eat. ya.

dunno la. . .

that my McDonald's

2005-11-27T02:20:00.000-08:00

i'm eating.
ordered McDonald's delivery.
i ate alot today.
coz i'm still mad and upset.
moreover, nothing to do.
so, eat your arse up.
that's the main reason i'm getting fatter every single day.

what the heck...

my saturday is so boring. watched tv and eat. slack. slack. slack. that's what i do.

and more slackin begins. . .

fuck you!

2005-11-26T17:40:00.000-08:00

SCRAM!!!!

Fuad Rahman Live in Concert

2005-11-26T02:41:00.000-08:00

i'm having 2 kinds of mood now. one happy, and the other, mad/sad/pissed!
well, i'll tell the happy one first.

went to Fuad Rahman concert and it was fantabulous!! gawd! totally FANTABULOUS!!! but too bad it was only an hour. it was too short. i didn't regret going to his concert. coz, when my mom told me he's gonna have a concert, i just wanted to see him perform. see how good is he and that kinda thing. ya. and he was super duper fantastic performer. although he sang songs by other singers, he still did it in his own style. he kinda has his own thing. if you know what i mean... after, the concert, we were invited to some refreshments coz we bought the tickets early. sort off like early bird special. so, we were invited to this wine bar and they served us drinks and some 'finger food'. then, we ordered coffee and fruit punch and we didn't pay for it. how cool is that. EVERYTHING is on the house. totally cool! took a few pictures with Fuad and Mira as well. will upload it here later. overall, i liked the concert very VERY much!

okay. to the bad mood now. :(

mom changed her mind of letting me go to jb with cousins. she says that there's something on Sunday morning. i mean, that 'something on' can be anytime we want what.. moreover, it's once in a while we, as cousins, go across the causeway. THAT would be an adventure! ergh! i begged my mom and she still don't allow me. whatever kan... one moment she allow me, and the next moment...NO! i feel quite upset when she told me i couldn't go. very VERY upset.

mom, if you're reading this. please allow me to go. i mean, this is a once in a lifetime thingy and it's not as if we're goin there alone. there are loads of adults whom are taking care of us. we wont be sleeping in a hotel anyway. oh man... just...just allow me to go... please.... :(

new skin

2005-11-25T01:01:00.000-08:00

hah.
done.
my new template.
nice?
simple right?
i like it that way.

anyway, didn't go to where we're supposed to go today. basically, all of us were merely lazy. damn lazy.

well, went town yesterday with naz and nad. nad shopped for her grad nite. so, we just tagged along. cool huh got grad nite. unlike my school. so pekak badak!!!!

I WANNA GO JB THIS SAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha~

STOP DRILLING!!!!!

2005-11-22T14:44:00.000-08:00

i just woke up. . . and it was a bad start! hey! i could have slept more!! ergh!

ok. i don't wanna talk about that anymore. it makes me sick!

anyway, it's been boring for me nowadays. eversince i'm back from Dubai. although i've got plans from thursday onwards, the days are so lagging! damn...

oh ya! kak iana told me the most shocking cum surprising thing. invitation i should say. err.. dun think i should let it out here. sorry guys. hahahaha!!!!

toodles~

kak iana's request

2005-11-20T03:23:00.000-08:00

hey guys. due to my cousin's request (yes YOU kak iana!!), i shall update! krekre

well, it's been a week since i'm back from Dubai. and guess wat.. I'M MISSING DUBAI!!!!!!!!! damn. . .

my sister's doin fine in Dubai. she satrted flying aldy. how cool is that. . . i mean, she get to go to places she never been before. THAT is cool. . anyway, she went to Moscow recently and she said it was freezing cold there.

oh ya. . goin jb this sat. with the cucu-cicit-hajam. jyeahhh!! i'm so looking forward to it.

k la. it's just bits and pieces. i'll try TRY to update regularly. . and i mean REGULARLY.

ok kak iana??

sidra village

2005-11-03T02:21:00.000-08:00

hmmm. . . .

DUBAI IS SO NICE!!!!!!! I WANNA COME HERE AGAIN MEXT YEAR!!!!!! I DON'T MIND STAYING HERE EITHER!!!!! JUST GIVE ME THE CREDIT AND I'LL ROCK DUBAI OFF ITS SHORE BAYBEH!!!! WOOHOO!! I'M ENJOYING IT HERE!!!

anyways, dubai is really a nice place. the skyline is beautiful. it has charateristics and nice features. it's really cool.. basically, went shopping just now. bought some stuff for myself. well, a few i should say. but...nvm...at least i bought something... also, the shopping malls here are super huge and you'll end up not buying anything. it's just because it's too huge and you don't know what are you gonna get. really. but i still wanna get some stuff.

2nd nov is not hari raya. although it's supposed to be. so we have to like fast for one more day. but it's confirmed it's gonna be on the 3rd nov. same as singapore. i's just that we're 4 hours behind. and it's 2.15am now. singapore's gonna celebrate raye in like few hours time!!

going for sand dunes this friday. desert i should say. cant wait! and we're goin for 'sand roller coaster ride'. how cool is that... it's the kind of thing you see it on the amazing race, where they drive their 4-wheeler and drive thru the desert... yeah! that's the one!! i really can't wait. and maybe, i'll be going parasailing again!!! i wanna see the palm from the bird's eye view.

so, that part of what i'm gonna do. i've gotta lose some weight man. i've been gaining it eversince i got here! meat...meat and more meat every single day... oh no!

lastly, to relatives and friends out there... wanna wish you guys a SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!

enjoy!

dubai love. . .

dubai..

2005-10-29T18:35:00.000-07:00

hee...at the airport now waiting to go in...

see ya in Dubai!!!

BYE!

grad ceremony

2005-10-29T03:40:00.000-07:00

didn't attend yesterday's graduation thingy. my eyes. they were red and swollen. scary sight. the size was half my original eyes. lucky, it's better now.

gonna leave today!!!!! and i finally finished packing all my stuff. well, not all really...

i think there's just some misunderstanding going on here. first, what's with hooda?? den, wat's with ryk?? oh no... thinking back... i think i caused this as well. i caused jaci to be angry with ryk. oh my god. i'm so sorry babe... and with hooda.... i really dunno man... anyways, chill out aite! :)

geez!

one bad trip

2005-10-26T01:45:00.000-07:00

so.. did went out on monday. but it was a bad one. whatever..

went geylang with azrika and maszuin after town. when we were walking, somebody shouted my name so loudly from across the road! i was like what the hell?? and when i looked it was my schoolmates. stupid sey they all. make me paiseh.

have to go town again tomorrow. i mean later. man...shitty. anyway, got my songs transferred in my zen. thanks to azrika for sending me songs. thanks babe!! hee...

i'm going off in a few days time and i haven't pack my things as well as not done anything before i'm going. mom said we're extending our stay there. so, it adds up to 2 weeks. woohoo! syeila ask me to stay there longer and keep her company for awhile. but i dun think i can. got something to attend to girl! maybe next time and we will rock Dubai off it's shore!!! woohoo!! just concentrate on skul first aite?

airport trip... watever~

2005-10-23T01:35:00.000-07:00

i'm mad.

i'm supposed to go out on friday but i didn't.

i'm supposed to go out on saturday but i didn't.

why???

coz my mom kept telling me to do some stuff at home.

whatever~

so, saturday was boring. i only went to the airport at nite to send my friend off to Dubai. she's gonna be there for 3 years. anyway, gonna meet her there when i'm going there.

anyway, what's with him?? did i do anything wrong?? i merely change my background and my profile and he went crazy about it. i was hoping that he could say something nice about it. ergh!!!!!!! i realldy dunno wat to do bout it. my heart's raging!!!!! i can't describe in words how i'm feeling now!!!!

scram!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

2005-10-20T02:14:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

yeah. it's my birthday and i'm 17. i can't believe i'm 17. i simply dunno why. well, dad bought me a ZEN nano which is so cool. i can store a whole lotta songs in there. wow!! naz bought me jeans. azrika, huda and jaci bought me an esprit cammisole. thanks for reading my mind guys! i suppose there's more to come.....

i hope so... haha!

anyways, went arab street to settle some stuff. went to haji lane after that. walked the whole stretch of shops. i like it there. it's so peaceful and quiet. it's different from the bustling arab street.

went to parco next. on the way there, somethin happened! as we were walking towards parco, we saw a lady's blazer on the floor. and of course we picked it up! and we quickly walked! we shopped abit a parco and went to banquet for break fast.

after that, we went geylang to buy more foodstuff!!

yum. .

yum. .

yummy. .

baby im back...with a laptop!!!

2005-10-17T00:08:00.000-07:00

hey! hey!

i'm back !!! yes i'm back!!! it's been a long time baybeh! miss blogging tho'. but i'm sick of my template already. i wanna change. but not so soon i guess. the laziness is still instilled in me. always....and forever... MUAHAHA!!!

i'm the only child in the family now. my sister's off to Dubai for about a month already. hope she's fine there. i'm visiting her on the 29th this month. can't wait. celebrating Hari Raya there too with my sis. really can't wait.

oops... i suddenly forgot what i wanna write....

blogged again

2005-09-03T01:22:00.000-07:00

finally! i'm blogging again! it's been months already i guess!

anyways, life's been normal for me. quite a number of stuff happening. firstly, the main thing. my sis got the stewardess job and she's leaving us in about 19 days time. she's gonna be stationed at Dubai amd won't be comin back. so, most prolly, she won't be back for hari raya.maybe also, i won't be here when the time comes. hee..can't wat to go to Dubai.
secondly, one of my girlfriend got into some probs. i feel so sorry for her tho i shouldn'i disclose it here. it's too personal. hope you're gonna be strong and i'm sure that the rest of the girls will be there for you too!! :)
thirdly, exams are so damn blardie near!!! i'm so so so very afraid! i have to make it! i rally do have to make it! whatever it is!
lastly, i wanna go to the BEP concert! i have to go eventho i've seen them before. they're just really damn good!! i must go!

so, i guess that's all. i actually have many things to talk about. but i can't seem to remember it now!

ergh!

racial harmony day...yesterday

2005-07-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

yesterday was racial harmony day and we wore our traditional costume and all. maszuin didn't come. it's a pity baybeh... the best part was.... WE TOOK PICS!!!!!!!

then with them...

finally, here's Lukman. i got a glimpse. muahaha!!

ok, he's like the shy-est guy in skul. he's sort of like shy of girls...

supa dupa kawaiki..haha

2005-07-15T23:19:00.000-07:00

hey, it's been ages since i've updated.the internet at my house something wrong. somehow, there's no internet connection. anyways, life's been pretty good. beginning to study. at the same time, been saving money. yes! im trying all my best to save money. coz.......I WANNA GO TO THE BRAVERY CONCERT!!!!!! maybe goin with ryka. no! ryka MUST go with me. muahaha!!!

got new pics but maybe i'll just upload it in friendster. too lazt to host it here.

well, my cousin's got a cat for about a month now. she's very mischievious and like to catch people where ever we go. so...presenting........

yeah.. her name's tootsie. she's cute but she's naughty.

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wheee....

2005-07-01T17:34:00.000-07:00

heyy. didn't blog for a week i guess. the internet at home was down. msn was down too. ergh. anyways, at his house now. meetin my cousin later to go to her house.

nothing much happen to me. skul's alright. i'm looking forward to exams and end everything for all. huda's leg got stiched. i saw her stiches. ewww. i can feel the pain at my feet. anyways take care dear. sorry once again for the misunderstanding. they didn't know that your message was meant for that idiotic stranger. sorry.

who's this "stranger" anyway??? well, here's for you stranger... hope you enjoy...

DEAR STRANGER,

I THINK I KNOW WHO YOU ARE AND I THINK I DON'T. ANYWAYS, WHO ARE YOU TO SAY THOSE STUFF TO ME?! IF YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY THOSE STUFF TO ME, WHY DON'T YOU PUT YOUR REAL FUCKIN NAME?! YOU KNOW WHAT? I REALLY THINK THAT YOU'RE A COMPLETE COWARD. LET ME REPEAT. A COMPLETE COWARD!!! FANCY CALLING YOURSELF "STRANGER" AND STILL GOT THE GUTS TO SAY ALL THOSE TO ME. WHAT A SHAME! SO, I HOPE THAT YOU HAVE ENJOYED WHAT I JUST GAVE YOU. HEAR FROM YOU SOON SUCKER! TILL THEN, GOODBYE!

FROM,
SYAHILA

stupid stranger...

supa duper bored

2005-06-19T04:30:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling so sick. since yesterday. my weekend so far...BORED. wanted to go town with masz yesterday but i'm sick. goodness..the time is just so right...mek... so, went to my mom's friend bbq. i was surprised to see fatimah there. she said that's her aunt's holding the occassion. what a small world we've got baybeh!

anyways, went ginza for lunch just now. went back home straight after that. so bored.

i'm braindead all of the sudden.

i want money!!! i'm totally bankrupt!!!

where the farkin hell are you....?!?!

The Oprah Winfrey Show

2005-06-16T00:30:00.000-07:00

just came back from granny's house and i suddenly feel so bored. dad didn't went to work today. on mc. yesterday was my sis. today, it was him. next, my mom...??

this evening received a message from my kuzzie. she asked me to message masz. masz asked me out this saturday and i'm so lookin forward to it. see how la....

dolly sessions...

2005-06-14T22:41:00.000-07:00

YES!! i finally met up with Anisah dearie!!! MUAHAHA!! met her at jp coz we juz wanna go sumwhr near. we had our late lunch and we just talked..talked and talked... non-stop hits baybeh... i'm lurving it!!!

so as usual.......CAM-WHORING SESSION!!!!

ive got a new job....?!?!?!

2005-06-13T20:45:00.000-07:00

i've been a part-time housewife lately. clean this..clean that..wash this..wash that... i'm supposed to have my dolly sessions today and somethin cropped up and i didn't get to meet her. farkin shit... hope tomorrow would be fine.

sorry for not updating for the past few days. i just couldn't sign in into my account. how incredible... so here's what i've been up to for the past few days...

friday: woke up early and accompanied him to the clinic. mind you..it's not a private clinic but polyclinic. i dread all those waitings in the polyclinic. we waited for 3 hours and he didn't see the doctor. so we just went out of the clinic. den accompanied nazira to make her ic. headed to town with him, naz, ilah and nad after that. naz and ilah wanted to get something. they have to go home early and i dun wanna go home so early. so i followed him as well as ajid and shikin. just the 4 of us walking around town. went home quite early. too tired. reached home at about 10pm and i was merely D E A D....

saturday: nothing much happened.watched tv in the whole afternoon. went taman jurong to accompany naz to a cybercafe coz she wanna use the internet. after we used the internet, we played at the arcade. it was so silly of us to spend all our money on the games. haha! chilled at McDonald's and reached home at almost midnite. oh no... palyed arcade games until midnite... they slept my house and naz was using the comp till the wee hours in the morning.

sunday: went grocery shopping with fam and the kuzzies. it was fun coz we played around at the store and were making fool out of ourselves. haha!

and here i am ranting all the way through.

i wanna meet u tmr!!!! muahaha!!!

COMP FITE!!

2005-06-10T02:50:00.000-07:00

i'm so bored.
i can't sleep.
i'm so addicted to Tiger Lily.
i'm insane right now.
the late nites are killing me.
i'm braindead.
i remember now.
it's someone's burfday.
hmmm...

HAPPY BURFDAY LUKMAN!!!!!

muahaha!!

I'M BACK!!!

2005-06-06T13:39:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK...-.-

BALI WAS FANTABULOUS!!!! But i dun wanna come home... 5 days was just not enuf!!! I WANNA GO TO BALI AGAIN!!!!! How i wish i could juz go where ever i want when ever i want...hmm... dream on la...

Day 1: woke up at 5.30am and pack all my last minute stuff. went out at about 7. reached the airport at about 7.40am and straight away checked in. it was a full house flight!! met naz and ilah at the airport and they were all so enthusiastic and nervous. first time take aeroplane mah.... inside the aeroplane, naz was so noisy like anything sey.. but dun blame her la. first time.. anyhoos, it was a 2 and a half hour flight to bali.

reached bali at abt 1pm and checked in at our hotel. discussed wat are we gonna do for the next 4 days and got into our rooms. i shared a room with nazira. cool! den went out at 5.30pm to catch e sunset at tis beach. wahduh wahduh...e beach fantastic. e wave was almost 5 metres high. yeah baybeh!! after dinner, walked around Kuta. hell yeah...KUTA!! where all the surf label boutiques are. we were all so exited. after we walked around and surveyed some stuff, went back to the hotel and zZzzZZZzzzZZzzZ....

Day 02: woke up early for breakfast. had plans for this day. first, went to watch the Barong Dance. it's their historical story of good vs evil. den visited some temples. went for lunch at this volcano site. the volcano was about 1650m high and we ate at a restaurant at that height. the ambience was so cool and u can see the clouds swaying.. how marvellous!! after that we went to this wood carving "factory". den headed to the art gallery. mom and dad bought 2 or 3 paintings i think... den finally went to this silver jewellery shop. it's pure silver. dad bought me a charm bracelet that cost S$140. it's pretty. i loike!!

Day 03: a wasted day i would say. went swimming in the morning and in the afternoon, we were brought to this hotel and were called up to sign up for this membership. time-sharing that kinda thing. such a waste of time. hello..we are here for a holiday..not to share our time... had lunch at KebabPalace..the food was nice and the service was great. went back to the hotel. coz the 3 of us wanna braid our hair. we ended up with one strand of braid. wanted to do the whole hair initially but didn't. anyways, i tried it before already when i was in Phuket. den went shopping in the evening. bought a Roxy tee and Roxy slippers.

Day 04: went to this beach and i PARASAILED!!!! woohoo!!! it was very fun!! den we rode the banana boat and we capsized twice on purpose!! love it!! den went snorkelling..the fishes were so beautiful...fed them and we took pics under the water. it was so nice. the water was so clear. after our water sports, went tp turtle island. the turtles...so damn cute!! after that, we changed and went to another volcano. it's cold up there and the feeling was so nice. had our lunch at this restaurant. den we went to Tanah Lot, whereby it's the symbol of Bali. basically, it's a temple located at the sea...i guess... den we saw 2 guys surfing in that big sea!! only 2 of them..wow!! den we shopped along the streets and got meself a red straw bag for just $4.10...muahaha!! bargain till half price.. MUAHAHA!!! reached the hotel at nite and packed our stuff...

Day 05: last minute shopping spree!! mom and sis went for spa and relaxation. the rest of us went to matahari..(it's a supermarket) to buy maggie mee flavours that aren't sold in Singapore. after that, fetched mom and sis and we headed to Hard Rock..ouh...lurve it there..!! i bought myself a tshirt. very nice. i like!! den went to buy a Roxy bag and headband. quick shopping and we headed back to the hotel. pack last minute stuff... and off we went to the airport...

I DUN WANNA GO HOME!!!!!!!!!

bali here i come...!

2005-06-01T08:36:00.000-07:00

at the airport now getting ready to go into the plane. be back on sunday.

adios!!!

BALI is tmr!!!!

2005-05-31T17:08:00.000-07:00

change of template. the old ons is kinda pinky. ewww...

going BALI tmr and i haven't pack my stuff.
how great.
but e excitement is thrilling me!!

anyhoos..my dolly has start to blog again. yipee! finally she blogged! if not, i won't noe wat's happening to her.

ok.
i'm braindead now.
no more shits to talk about.
bye.

lazee monday

2005-05-30T14:33:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling oh so lazy now.
supposed to clean this and that.
but, that can wait.
supposed to pack myy stuff.
but, that can wait too.
see, the pure laziness is in me.
someone!
destroy it for me!!

i'm lookin forward for the BALI trip. but, somehow i just wish that i could there without bringing any necessary stuff. but one thing i must bring....KA-CHING!!!!! totally can't live without those. a spoilt brat...!!

so long suckers. get loose.

bored

2005-05-23T19:04:00.000-07:00

what a boring day i have.... didn't do much today as i juz laze around and bla bla bla....

yesterday went cdans for bowling sessions with fam. after bowling went to Mustafa Centre. MY GOSH! there's a whole lotta ppl there!! i feel as though im in India...! so peeps..if u want a taste of India...head down to Mustafa Centre. geez... well, one thing goood about "India" is that e stuff there is really cheap!

after our trip to "India", we went to bukit timah for supper and naz went BLIND! e eyes...!!! OMG!!! so scary.. mcm hantu!!! her whole eye area bulged out just lyk that and it was super scary. super super scary.

anyhoos, just take care ya and get well really soon!! coz BALI is waitng for us la!!!

Saturday Nite Live......NOT!!!

2005-05-21T03:25:00.000-07:00

ok..it's like 3.15 in e morn and im not asleep yet. it's because my computer is working aldy!!! woohoo!!! so, i'll be like engrosed to e comp.

naz and ilah are at my cribo. sleepin over of course. it's been a long time since they've slept here... hope they enjoy themselves. hahaha!

anisah dearie....hope u're not angry with me or anything. if u are juz scream at me if u want. if tt makes u better. please dun say such things like i've got new babes and i've forgotten my dearie dolly. u asked me to msg u. i did. u didn't reply back. sob sob. nvm, still waiting. as i have said, i've got zillions to tell u. can't wait. ;-) things that are not meant for other babes to hear!! haha! please try to make urself free latest next week coz tt's e only week i can see u and i'm off after tt. really wanna see u... till den, missin u always.... muakz!

baby talk....peLaT!!!!!

2005-05-20T23:29:00.000-07:00

heLLu...been not updating for days.. reason being...NO COMPUTER...!! but wat e heck...

after came back from skul, went straight home and went out back again for my appointment. collect my retainer. man..it sucks wearing it for the first time. i talk like a small kid juz learning how to talk.. oh no.... have to put up with it 24/7 for 6 months.... how am i gonna eat...??

after appointment went to meet up deq masz. wanna go huda's hse..obviously, wanna use the comp. i being the creator for them...create a new bloggy for ryka, create a friendster account for deq masz and i've gotta change huda's template...coz she want a new one...

juz now on the way to huda's house somethin really stoopid happened! hahakz! huda and azryka went down to the bus stop to fetch me an maszuin.. den huda was lyk playing around with her keys and WAHLA!!!! her keys drop inside the drain!!!! and the 4 of us was like AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!! didn't noe wat to do... den me and maszuin..we were like trying to open the drain cover and see the keys stranding there... hahakz!!! we tried all means to take the jeys out of the drain. den tis nyonya came....she was with her umbrella. den huda ask whether we can borrow her umbrella. huda laid on the pathway and tried taking her keys with the short umbrella. when nothing can be done huda ran up to her house and take this gala thingy....den by the time she was back down, tis man helped us by goin into e drain and help us to retrieve the keys....lucky us....if not we can't go to huda's hse...syamil is trapped inside e hse...and god noes wat will happen to huda and her mom.... may god bless u hooda...

bali

2005-05-13T16:28:00.000-07:00

it's confirm that i'm goin Bali this comin hols. i so wanna have fun there! I'M GONNA RIDE THE WAVE BAYBEH!!! BALI..HERE I COME!!!! WAHAHAHAHAH!!!

anyhoos, im missin anisah!! whr are you my dearie.... we ain't lesbos for your info...

aiyah...im feelin lazy now....

SO LONG SUCKERS!! AND GOODBYE!!!

haha...

AIN'T A METAL-MOUTH !!!!!

2005-05-11T23:33:00.000-07:00

okaes....i'm emotional cum glad cum mixed up of feelings rite now.... k.. this is the thing.. took off my braces this afternoon and i was so freakin nervous in the dental room. i didn't know that he was taking it out at that moment...?!?! after it was taken off, i look myslef in the mirror, told my kuzzie abt it and i simply cried... tears of joy baybeh.... i juz can't describe my feelings at that moment...it was totally UNBELIEVEABLE!!!

enuf of that now....

finished my exams aldy. felt a lil relieved! too bad e rest of my frens have to turn up tmr fer their last paper. all e best guys...!!

aniwaes...the malacca trip was alright. had loads of fun...

one more day!!!!

2005-04-29T07:28:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna leave tomorrow morning and getting all so excited. naz and ilah packed their stuff aldy. as for me... nah... i just can't help it. if i were to go anywhere, i will pack my stuff the last minute. that's me....

saw my dearly anisah at jp this afternoon. she was hoping to see me and ....walah...! here i am...anyhoos, hope things are fine with u and him...

well, i'm off now. i'll be back soon with PICTURES!!!! whee...

I AM SUCH A CAMWHORE!!!! humph....

YAZID!

2005-04-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

just a few days ago, an old soulmate of mine came back to life. i was so shocked. we was like losing contact for few years aldy now. (such a coincedence! he's just online now!!)

he changed alot. he likes FCUK now and are so obsessed with it. but one thing...when i chatted with him, he's talking stuff that didn't make sense. i thought he's gonna ask about how my life is now or wat... (he ask la..but very little only...) the way he chats...OMG!! so didn't make sense.

i'll just log off...!

back afta a week

2005-04-28T01:04:00.000-07:00

oLa! didn't update for a week now. been busy.im so looking forward for the long weekend getaway. yeah..if u guys aldy read my kuzzie's bloggy, ya'll noe wat i mean...hmmm... MALACCA...HERE WE COME!!

this past week had been really fine for me..not like last week. fuck it.. anyhoos, maszuin's burfday was on last monday and i didn't get for her anything. so sorry girl. i had no bucks!

that's it guys..i dun really know wat to do in here aldy...

bye for now...

argh!

2005-04-21T19:10:00.000-07:00

sorry guys but im'm in no mood today. im juz fuckin pissed with everything at skul. wtf..?? I HATE TODAY. I HATE THE PAST FEW DAYS TOO! I JUST SIMPLY HATE IT! SO YOU JUST BACK OFF AND..JUST GO..

ergh...!~

argh

2005-04-21T04:10:00.000-07:00